today whole day i felt anxious because i was waiting for someone to text me but they didnt and finally i did. i stared at my phone for a long time so i can see the typing... thing which i didnt.

i have been through this few times. each time i have survived. there is something about this pain. there is a dialogue in blade runner 2049 which goes something like this, the pain you feel today reminds that the joy you felt was real. i dont know if remind is the correct word here but whatever,

i developed a crush like 4 weeks ago too. i was intense at that time as i can recall but the feelings faded away and now i feel nothing. no jealousy no desire nothing.

i have developed same feeling for a new person i came to know about 2 weeks ago. i think its intense right now, i dont know how i am gonna feel in two weeks.